Being a mom

Well, last night I got to thinking about when Bianca is going to be in school and how much it is going to be different around the house without her all day.  I cried of course and man am I going to miss that little girl during the day.  I know it isn't until August but hey that will be here before you know it.  I think Jeremy was a little shocked at how emotional I was, oh well that is how us women are huh.  I am really nervous as to how kids will treat her and if she gets hurt.  Cause that is how this mom thinks.  I really don't think kids should be bossy and all that and I don't want her to be bossed around by other kids and vice versa, if she is bossed around I will just have to teach her how to tell those kids to stop bossing her around.  I will have to teach her how to stand up for herself.  Man what a stressful thing to think about.  No I will not teach her to fight, just to know what to say when someone says something that bugs her or is mean or bossy or whatever.  Don't get me wrong I am very excited to see her go to school just a little nervous.  I am excited to do the school shopping thing. I might have to hit Park City on the holiday shopping buys!!!  That's right it is worth going up there for how much you save and this year I am there. Anyways I know you really don't want to read more about this but there you have it in a nutshell of what I am emotional about right now.  And I really miss my family in Utah and calling up a cousin that is like a sister to me and saying hey want to come over or can I come over?   Anyways it is really hard.